Is That Still You?

Here were are! It's a new year new me, right? 

I haven't written anything on this blog since August of last year. Let's see what has happened since then. I got a part time job at a store that I've always loved... I started up my vegetarian lifestyle again, and that's it hahaha!

I've been trying to keep myself busy and getting myself up doing things. I'm also trying new stuff and meeting new people. Meaning people that I already know but investing a little more into whatever relationship we have already. The end of my serious relationship has made a lot of "normal" "easy" things sometimes impossible. Thing is I don't want to be held back by something that doesn't exist anymore.

I'm writing a short list of goals here for myself but advice would be greatly appreciated. I have no clue what I'm doing.

1. Go back to school! Stop being scared and making excuses!! You're life will be filled with debt with or without school.
2. Hold strong on this vegetarian thing. You know why you're doing it and it hold a special place in your heart. Don't let the judgmental tone of others make you forget why.
3. Get that "revenge" bod not for him or others but revenge of letting yourself not feel comfortable in your own skin.
4. Try not letting anyone else lack of respect for you dictate weather or not you'll let yourself get out there and try meeting new people.
5. Don't let comfort swallow you whole. If you want to travel or move DO IT!
6. Also save up to visit Milwaukee.
7. Last but not least BECOME A VETERINARIAN. You love animals and this is your passion/calling. Prove yourself and all them wrong!

Same Ol' Same Ol'

 Here I am laying on the floor of my old bedroom. Life has a funny way of being an ass.
I no longer have a bed in this room. It's wasn't exactly in anyone's plans for me to be living here again. I was living in North Carolina but because of some serious circumstances here I am again. Also nothing went right with school. I was too late. Well now to try again, right? Spring semester is fine, right??
 ~this post is from August, 2015

Searching for Happiness...

I was reading an old friend's blog earlier, Lauren's Blog, and It got me thinking. It's very easy to get drowned by all the negative things happening in your life. Well today I'm hoping to figure out some of the things that make me happy. This will be a reminder of that it's not all bad!

"Happiness List"-

• My furry baby, Lily
• Nature
• Visiting new places
• Researching new information over anything at all
• Having a clean home
• Having the opportunity  to go back to school to become a veterinarian
• ....... finding more things to be happy about

Well that was disappointing, but now I have something else to work towards. I'm going to learn to enjoy more things in my life. I'll find more things to be happy about.

If anyone want to give me suggestions of things I should try out that make you happy write them in the comments below. Thank you!! 

And Then The World Crashes And Burns Around You! What Do You Do?

 We'll here I am. I'm about to turn twenty five next month, I'm a quarter of a century old. With that being said I haven't accomplished much in my life. As I grew older I became more afraid of the world which in turn held me back from a lot of experiences.

I've been married for three, almost four years. Last month it ended abruptly, and that is where my world came crushing and burning down on me. I put all my eggs in one basket. Sometimes you go into an amazing , loving, and caring relationship but apparently it won't last forever. We live our lives knowing that nothing is promised but sometimes you can't help but being caught off guard.

"When one door closes, Another one opens" "There are other fish in the sea" "Time heals all wounds"

There are many opportunities that can be taken from this situation. I can definitely move, grow, and learn from this. Sadly, right now in this moment my life feels heavy and this feeling of drowning. The good thing  is that my brain can sometimes float up to the surface and make smart decisions. Coming out of this situation I will work hard to make myself happy. You have to work through the pain and anxiety attacks.

First step I needed to take was towards my mental and physical health. The aforementioned was something that I was always ashamed to addressed. I didn't want anyone to see me in a lesser light or be thought of as someone to avoid. It's hard to accept that there could be something wrong with you and that you maybe not be able to resolve it yourself. I'm grateful for all the help I've been given. Also the friends who have risen to the occasion, thank you so much!

As for the rest of my life? I've decided to finally get the strength and get ride of the fear and applied for school. I haven't been in school for five years, so this is something I've always been a little intimidated to go back to. Well what better time to start when you have practically nothing to lose! Next time something like a big life event happens I'll have a lot more too fall back on. I will no longer be so completely dependent on anyone ever again. In a marriage I believe that you can have some dependency, you're a partnership! You shouldn't be afraid to need someone else, but when it's all you have... that's scary.

I'll be studying to become a veterinarian so that will be a big chuck of the next few years. I'm excited to get to working on it. To start this adventure I'm moving to a whole new state. I need to move forward and put a little distance from my past.


to be continued.......

Wicked Riot

So LimeCrime is a brand I had wanted to try for years. Recent events made me a little weary. This brand has had it's name dragged through the mud for years. Just a couple of months ago they had a security breach and pretty much that was the last straw for a whole heap of people. With an update on their security I decided that this would probably be the best time to give it a try. 

Christmas Pooch

   These are incredibly late and I apologize. I've posted them all over the rest of the internet so here it is.

She really dislikes hoods!

"Blooper"

The Halloween Spirit

I bought this jar without a clue of what to do with it. Thankfully I found these chocolate eyeballs in our commisary!

So Halloween is my favorite holiday, as I'm guessing most will say. No that we have our own home I went crazy trying to make and put together as many decorations as I could. So here is a gigantic post of some of the things that I made/put together for this holiday. Also you can see what my favorite scented candle was in a picture below.

I used a technique that any  kindergartner could master, while making these hats. You make a cone, cut a circle (for brim) and tape it together!

These were the first things I made, they have been hanging since the beginning of the month.

I'm usually more of a Silkin & Co. fan but this Yankee candle has been my ultimate favorite!

 This candle reminded me so much of home during Autumn. Here in Korea, with the lack of trees, I haven't seen many changing leaves. I miss that so much about Georgia. I miss walking through Sims Lake park listening to the water run its course and the rustling of the leaves in the wind. 

We finally got some shelves and it made me just giddy with excitement to stuff them with pumpkins!

These bat lights are one of my favorite decorations. They go perfectly with the black and orange pumpkin garland!

ALL THESE DANG SPIDER WEBS!! I should probably clean more often ;)

Last but definitely not least, Lily! We all started getting stuff for our costumes sometime towards the end of September. Our tiniest fluffiest member of the family also needed a disguise. I searched all over the internet and on amazon so something befitting of this little girl. We found on costume, Wonder Woman, that ended up being more like a ball gown than dress. Lily is a tiny pooch fitting between the (dog) sizes of xs and s. So my finally searching ended up on Etsy! I should have known I'd find something here. I present to you the cutest little Goku! 

This little fluff monster would not stay still so these are the best shots we could get :)

Maybe later on I can show you guys better shots of the costume. It has a good amount of detail.  Also some shots of our Jack-o-lanterns we will be carving tonight!

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!